Love yourself a little more?

Dear me,

Yes, this one is for you dear! You’ve walked enough out there, wearing your heart on your sleeves. Pause and love yourself a little more, because on the days you wake up feeling blue, just like today, you might be the only one around you!

P.S. We do write long letters/ emails / messages to our acquaintances living in different parts of the world, right? Then how do we find it difficult to write to someone so close to us – US?! Considering the crunch in time we face from the daily rat-race, isn’t this supposed to be the nearest and convenient letter to post or send across – a letter to ourselves?  We don’t need to step out of our homes or catch a taxi or take out our phones and tire our tiny fingers with all the typing. All that is required is just a calm place to shush your heart screaming out for attention, yes, your attention! Just sit down and listen to yourself; listen to all the little secrets you have been hiding from the world behind your beautiful smile!

Before you wonder and start to regret for putting the P.S. amidst a letter, when it’s supposed to be at the end, let me tell you: “It doesn’t always have to be perfect, and no one is. There is nothing in this world that is perfect, neither time nor a person. It’s on you to make a moment perfect. You can make mistakes just like anyone else does. You may meet a right person at the wrong time or vice versa. But you learn from these mistakes and if you don’t, then do give a knock on your head on my behalf! Well, glad you smiled reading that one; a smile sincere from your heart, the beautiful and honest smile I’ve been longing from you since long! So, hey listen, you don’t need to break yourself over and over with each mistake because it’s the mistakes that help you grow. Just stay strong enough to be there for yourself because I know the relay your over-exerting mind and heart plays by passing on the baton of thoughts, is the toughest race you need to win. So, save some fuel in you, for yourself.”

Understand that it’s fine if your social battery has drained off, I mean how can it not? I’m indeed surprised that you came along this far, while holding onto the broken pieces of your heart. It’s high time that you understand that you were trying to complete your life’s jigsaw puzzle by looking for the missing piece in someone else’s hand, when it was always there, hidden deep within your soul. All it takes is a look into yourself when you feel lost! You are an ocean of your own, where people can get lost if they care to venture. So, escape from the world and dive into this deep ocean until you hit rock bottom. It’s always fun to explore the unexplored, isn’t it?! See your heart unfold many secrets that you have been turning a blind eye to and remember that you are an adventure of your own!

It’s ok to overthink about the little things, questioning your life, and breaking down. In fact, you need to be proud of yourself for having a heart that bleeds in this world of scarce emotions. You care a lot and hence hurt a lot. On those days, do remember your favourite quote from TFIOS: “Without pain, how could we know joy?” And do remember that it is also OK to feel numb! It happens and it’s just a phase that will pass by. Even, rocks crumble and so will your heart start to feel again.

Don’t let the world change you. You are loved for who you are, so you do you my dear! Be there for yourself, because you are the nearest person you can run to when you feel lost in this world. And, mostly because you know you are lazy, and it is more convenient that way!

Get out of the bed and stop sulking because you are meant to shine bright. Do not give the rights to anyone else to dull your sparkle because it is only this spark that can guide you back to home- YOU!

So, on the days you feel blue, just go with the flow! Do everything that you want to even if it is as crazy as it may sound or do nothing at all. Take yourself out or shut the world behind your doors and enjoy solitude with a cup of tea or by just lying on the bed wrapped in your blanket. Go to the beach and just listen to the waves lash at the shore or sit in your balcony and stare down at the world running here and there or stare into the walls of your apartment right to horizon. Cry your eyes out or laugh like a lunatic. Starve until your stomach growls or eat until you can’t squeeze in a morsel more. Laze around in your over-sized pyjamas or fit into the attire that brings out the confidence in you. Watch your favourite series all over again or disconnect yourself from the gadgets around you. Cook a meal for yourself and laugh over the mess you created in the kitchen or order in your go-to meal and gobble it down. Have a long hot shower or walk like a mess.

All that I’m reminding you is, be the way you want and give your soul a break, because I love you and I can’t see you break down. You are my happy place; always have and always will be! There is no one who can replace you and none that I’d wish would take your place.

Knowing how you are, I know you’ll overthink many more times and shatter into tinier pieces. But do me a favour and love yourself a little more?

Sincerely,

ME.

P.S. We are in a world where we can describe anything and everything but when asked to talk about ourselves, we pause, we hesitate! A world where we find answers to any question just a click away, but never able to find an answer to, “Who am I?” because that’s an answer unique to each one of us and an answer that can be answered just by us! Are we that horrible to not be loved or cared for? If the answer is a yes, then my friend you are making the second mistake of expecting to find love from people around you. Yes, the second mistake! Because, the first mistake is that you are missing out on something precious than a gem in search of something/someone that is incomparable with you!