Just this one last time?!

A long-forgotten yet a beautiful story! Currently, that’s what I like to call that chapter in my life, whenever anyone shoots the most cliché post-breakup question towards me: “Have you moved on?!” Well by long-forgotten; please do not take the literal meaning out of it, my dear readers. I just ought to let you know that it’s been long enough for you to forget that and update yourself with new gossips. C’mon, I get the part that this story was once the talk in the city. But as necessary it is for me to move on, so is it for you! I’m done listening to all the sympathies and ‘awwws’ you would let out on hearing my short lived romantic story. I try to put enough full stops to that tale but you, the society, are just like the wind obstructing me from moving on to the next page. You blow in the wrong direction all over again; now you are supposed to help me in the direction of turning pages and then you were to blow in such a way that would pull her close to me. How can you mess it up every single time?! I hope my story is enough to let you know that you are invented to keep the dear ones close and keep the strangers off!!

Well, I’m kind of going off-track because my dear society, I’m not going to give you any more attention, at least that’s not what I wish to after all these years. I once had given you enough attention but only to lose something precious than a gem to me. Yes, I lost her! I lost my love while I gave an ear to all those crappy questions you kept bombarding at me. I could never provide her with an answer to why I love her or why it felt like home beside her or an affirmation to a happily ever after. It is unbelievable that I gave a damn thought to what all you ever made me believe in, when I was ought to surrender my only thoughts to her, to us! And that’s something that I guess I’ll regret life-long. Her thoughts haunt me still and this time I won’t hesitate to shout it out to the world, against all those ears waiting to eavesdrop to what my heart wants to whisper; her name. I won’t let you hush me down and I won’t step back from this very last time I want to speak about her because since long, behind the pale smile I flash upon you, I have been gulping down words waiting to break free. I don’t want to suffocate up on such a mesmerizing thought because all I wish is to continue living knowing that I was lucky enough to meet an angel like her! I beg of you to not stop me, this one last time…

Her twinkling eyes beautifully drawn with her only favourite makeup ‘kajal’ used to hold me back in such a magnetic way that I could see the entire future we were to stumble upon together; she never paused to think before she casted her pearly whites between her perfectly curved lips and yes, I can still hear her giggle in the silliest yet cutest way amongst the crowded local trains I travel by daily; her butter-fingers used to carelessly intertwine between my long fingers hoping to find her name embossed on my ring finger one day; and I can never forget the way her hair used to sway and fall over her perfectly carved face waiting to be brushed away by my fingers, only to find her breath-taking gaze and smile! What an exclusive creation of God she is, with such a striking look and an even more gentle soul within! Hmph. I just wish I could rewind time and that I had not stood there blankly gazing at her as the tears streamed down waiting for it to be wiped off by me, yes me! What was I waiting for? But, how could I, knowing that I was the reason for those drops soaking my shirt collar as she clung onto me tightly praying to stay that close with me forever? It’s only because I listened to you, my dearest society! I was scared you would cause her more hurt than you would to me, which is why I let her go before it’s too late; I let her slip away from my arms.

Since then, I have been choking on words she wished to hear that day, and I still can feel her presence around me hoping to just hear my heart beat her name. I won’t hold back this time, my dear… “I loved you, and I still love you. I want to scream your name out loud and wait until the echoes reach you, just so that I can let you know that you still rule my heart and it only beats for you, until day! What we had is a long-forgotten story because I want to start a fresh one and I commit to you that it will be a happily ever-after tale as you wished for! I won’t let you slip away from my arms this time and I want to die in your arms instead. But……..Right now, I’m scared, not of the society but only about whether time defeated us; What if the fake story I delivered to them reached you and, this time you believed their little lies and moved far away from me and left me on my own?! What if I’m too late, too late to comprehend that once again the society overtook and defeated me, with the help of time; and that I’m at loss again, a loss so beautiful and irresistable?!”

P.S. So many of us let go of our love fearing what the future may bring to us, mainly worrying about what the society will think of us. Does it really matter what they think? Yes, for a meanwhile it may. But, they too will move on with their lives, right? If you left your love fearing some ‘may or may not happen’ incident, was is it really love? Yes, you may have left your loved one to prevent anymore hassles or sorrow because you can’t bear to see tears in your loved one’s eyes, but do remember that you will never be able to forget that one. Do give it a thought!

Oh! How I’d wish.. (Part-2)

When the wind caressed me,

I’d wish that your arms embraced me…

When the rain showered on me,

I’d wish to drown in your eyes…

When the sun beamed upon us,

I’d wish to see a shadow,

of us and not mine alone…

When the snow left me shivering,

I’d wish that I could melt in your love…

And, when the autumn leaves shed on us,

I’d wish that I could walk by the lane,

with you in a bridal dress…

I gave up all of me to you,

my wishes to fate,

my expectations to reality,

and all that I’d think of,

in my tiny little fantasy land.

only to enter a world,

a world of reality filled with obstacles;

to end with you and I!

Oh! How I wish I could,

elope to my dreamland,

where I had been assured

a happily-ever-after;

and escape from this chaotic life,

where you and I aren’t assured ;

the thought that makes me all jittery…

I had always wished that,

I’d never need to write,

about us or just you,

because I want you to live in my life,

and not in my poems!

P.S. Well, not everything in life happens the way we want because the main controller of each one of our lives, God, is watching over us, from up there! And, he’d definitely want only the best for us…Keep calm and go with the flow!

“Kol shaye yahdos le sabab” .. (Everything happens for a reason in Arabic)

An incomplete story..

I pushed you quite far,

far away from me;

yet you live in my dreams..

Not that quite often as before,

but like the monsoon rain,

that shower these days..

We promised that we wouldn’t,

show up again,

as we bid farewell,

the last time we met;

but then I realized that,

actions do speak louder than words

’cause it seems like,

we show up in each other’s memories..

I don’t regret all those,

memorable moments that you gave me;

all I regret is my choice,

to live and die in your arms;

my decision to let you,

be the reason behind my,

tears of happiness and the,

cause of the scariest chaos;

the chaos in my once peaceful soul!

You were the rose in my paradise,

that left pleasant memories,

just like it’s fragrance,

and also like the thorns,

that left scars on those memories,

as we approached the deadline;

the deadline to our ‘happily-ever-after’ story..

I chase you in my dreams,

then, now and forever;

but now as I open my eyes,

I wake up to reality;

A reality where,

“We” live in the pics of my photo gallery,

and what is left is just “You” and “I“..

We proved to be cowards,

in the battlefield of love,

where neither distance,

nor religion separated us;

but the four letter words,

‘Love’ and ‘Fear’ got interchanged;

the fear to hold hands together,

as we scripted a beautiful saga,

to carry with us to heaven..

You are just one call away,

and so is the DEL button,

but my heart skips a beat,

every time I hear your name,

when I haven’t seen you in so long..

At that I wonder,

have I really moved on?!

And my heart just flashes,

a pale smile..

Some Say..

Some say, Love’s a crazy feeling,
where you lose all your other senses..
But what if you are ready,
to set fire to your senses
for that one crazy soul?!

Some say, Love’s a beautiful feeling,
where you don’t have to get it right,
like Romeo & Juliet..
But be like that,
Grandpa & Grandma who spent,
amazing times together,
ignoring each others flaws;
laughing their hearts out,
through those teethless gums..

Some say Love’s gonna tear us apart,
in such a way that,
you feel lost without your better half..
Ain’t that true?!
But shouldn’t you be there,
for yourself always,
because you die alone eventually?

Some say Love’s a funny feeling,
where you don’t know,
what happens to you..
Your tummy turns into a kaleidoscope,
you see them everywhere;
But don’t you think,
you do need to add an,
eenie meenie pinch of fun factor,
to make your life intersting;
and for sure ,
someone to look & smile at?!

Some say Love’s gonna kill you,
where only the sincere one gets,
stabbed to death!
But, can you deny the fact that,
once born you have to die?
You got no option buddy,
go ahead, explore and love fearless;
or else you’re just gonna,
die a little, every single day..

Some say Love’s a special feeling,
where two souls become one,
YOU and I becomes WE,
and hell turns into paradise;
just ’cause of that one promise,
a promise to be together,
let it be then, now or forever..
But, never forget that,
your story is written,
in a unique and special way..

Some say Love’s all about trial and error,
where it ain’t necessary to get it right,
at the first shot itself..
But ever wondered,
if you lost your faith in love,
just ’cause of that one wrong person,
you are just,
just one step behind in,
findng your soulmate,
and they are still alone in this world,
waiting for you?!

Some say Love’s scary,
where you’ll be scared of dejection,
scared of losing your partner,
or scared to hear a ‘Goodbye’ from them..
But isn’t it more scarier,
scarier to know that,
these things in your mind,
are gonna taunt you 24/7,
’cause you know obviously,
Mind can be the worst Enemy at times?!
So, go out there and express yourself,
it may or may not happen,
why not give it a try?!
Waiting can hurt,
but what’s more painful,
is to forget somone,
someone you love!

Some say, some say,
Oh hold on!
What does it matter,
what those ‘some’ say?!
What matters is what,
your heart says,
your mind says,
and that’s what exactly counts!

Don’t you wanna experience,
those sweet and lovely moments,
with that perfect person?!
Don’t you wanna complete yourself,
with your better half?!
No one’s in a hurry alright!?
Just be patient and wait for the right one,
’cause you can’t rewrite the story;
the amazing ‘HAPPILY EVER AFTER’ story,
God has written for you;
But definitely add your bit of touch to it..

P.S. It’s not gonna be like any other love stories, because you are unique and God has added a unique touch to your story too..
A kid once asked God, “If you have written my story, why should I take any efforts? I’ll just go with the flow”, to which He replied that, ” You shouldn’t just sit back and watch.. It’s probably cause at few places, I have written ‘As you wish’ ” …